My Best Friend Forever

With every passing day, my priorities in life are getting more and more clear. I no longer feel the drive for success. I no longer fantasize about being influential. About being powerful. About changing the world.

 

All I want from this life is to feel at peace in my heart, knowing that I’m on the right path. I don’t want to hurt anyone or cause pain. I don’t want to be in competition with anyone else. All I want, is to be strong.

 

I really love you Anne. I know I almost never say it out loud, but I really do. Considering I just cried my eyes out for the past two hours.. I’m sorry if I ever did anything that upset you. Whatever happened in the past, I forgive you completely. I just hope that when you leave this world, that you’re happy. Whether that be tomorrow, in five years, or in fifty years. When you read this, I’ll probably be in my bedroom, anxiously waiting for you to call me.

 

Just know in your heart, that no matter what happens, I’ll be okay. I promise. I swear to Allah I’ll be strong.

 

Even though I vow to still work hard and go after my dreams, the idea of being successful just doesn’t do it for me anymore. It doesn’t excite my soul like it used to. Honestly, I feel nothing.

 

More than anything, I just want to be a good person. I want to cherish the simple things in life. I see myself as a visitor here in this world, just stopping by. Because in the end, that’s all we’re doing. We’re just stopping by.

 

Thank you, for everything

 

Your BFF,

Esin

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